For you there'll be no crying
For you the sun will be shining
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

To you, I would give the world
To you, I'd never be cold
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

Like never before; like never before

A card given to me by a very goodfriend.. well.. my bestfriend actually.. Surya.. it's animated with all this flashy womanly qualities... her personal message was..

BE STRONG

For me, you are a refined woman with a wonderful personality and beautiful teeth. Insha'Allah, you will overcome what is bringing you down. Take time to think and path out chapters to come. I am here if you need a friend, Insha'Allah.

I thought that was sweet and a really sweet gesture...

Things to get:-

- plastic sheets for tables (cover the tie-dye table cloth in the artroom.. weee!!!)
- clips to hold the plastic in place
- cadbury milk chocolate (major craving)
- masks

Things to do in the next few coming days:-

- Arab st with Surya (differ arab class to after Ramadhan)
- scanning and consultation
- trek up bukit timah with Surya
- cycling
- take MRTs and walk home instead of cabs!
- swimming with Kavi S and Xiaomin
- lay on the grass of botanical gardens with Ranjini
- paint my room

and OH! event shoot on the 15th in Surya's house!!!

In the memory of the fabulous intelligent director who passed.. May her soul rest in peace

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Beautiful imperfection...

When things happen... they always happen for a reason, both good and bad... to make us reflect on ourselves.. perhaps to make us better beings.. or something.. I don't know..

I'm down with a test in my life.. which I'm not sure I can pass.. I feel really down and I'm depressed... out of the many things I want in my life right now... or since my brother passed, I want a family of my own.. and I want children.. which was said yesterday at the clinic that it's difficult for me to conceive... I have cysts both sides of my ovaries.. I'm just really down and scared.. among many other things.. I'm not sure where to pen down my emotions and confide to.. I feel really good after typing I guess...

I'm blessed because I have many friends and am part of a very close knitted family.. but I came to know that one can't always depend on others.. I'm left alone... my brother passed long time ago.. and I miss having a sibling.. If I'm born the only child, I probably won't feel this way.. but I've had a taste of having a wonderful brother who not once bullied me in any way.. he's the kind who would buy himself a cheese burger on his way home from school and keep the other half for me.. the one who'd give his share of ice-cream even when I've gobbled mine.. lately.... I just feel so alone in a big big place..

Anyways.. I don't know what I'm rambling about.. all I know is I'm disappointed... about a lot of things.. but mainly.. I'm really scared if I have to remove my ovaries.. or even if they don't it's difficult for me to conceive.. and I really want children.. Oh well..